There
once was an innocent man who hung on a cross and died there as false
accusations were hurled upon his whipped open body. As he fought for every breath of his life he
fought for the life of the guilty and the condemned.
As
he looked at the two criminals, one to the right and another to the left,
hanging on crosses, and the others who were crucifying him, he spoke:
“Father, forgive them, for they know not
what they do.” Luke 23: 34
I
know the story, and perhaps you do too.
I have heard Jesus’ words many times amazed by his ability to
ask his father to forgive the very ones who were killing him.
I
wonder could I do the same?
He
calls me to this.
And when you stand praying,
if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven
may forgive you your sins. Mark 11:25
For if you forgive men when
they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive
you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not
forgive your sins. Matthew 6:14-15
Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord,
how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to
seven times?”
Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven
times, but seventy-seven times. Matthew 18:21-22
During this particular reading of Jesus’ words I see the ending
clause, the words, “for they know not what they do.”
What? What do you mean,
Jesus? These criminals and these
persecutors, they know what they are doing.
The two thieves, now paying their sentence, know that stealing is
wrong. The men mocking you, whipping
you, nailing your hands and your feet to the wooden beams, they know you have not
committed a crime. They know innocent
blood stains their hands.
Don’t they?
As I sat with these words and my questions, I began to think
maybe they didn’t really know what they were doing. Maybe they didn’t know they were killing the
Son of God, the Savior. Maybe they
didn’t know the gravity of their sin or against whom they were sinning.
I have forgiveness issues.
I know Jesus asks me, no commands me, to forgive others and so I do it
because I want to be obedient. I forgive
at least until my offender hurts me again.
And then I muster up my obligatory forgiveness again.
Is obligatory forgiveness really forgiveness?
I hold Jesus’ words and see they are filled with compassion and
mercy.
…for they know not what
they do.
In this moment with his final breaths, he extends mercy and
forgiveness, not justice to the unjust.
I, full of breath, look at my offenders and say you should know
better. You should know how deeply you
have hurt me. You know all that you
do.
In the moment I want justice.
My soul is too bound to justice.
I feel myself leaning further and further to justice and I am reminded of Micah 6:8:
And what does the Lord require of
you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.
I
read these requirements closely and I see the words “to act justly.” I am to act justly, not to administer
justice. I am to love mercy. Perhaps, my just act is to cover my offenders
in mercy and say, "Father, help me to forgive them for they know not what they
do."
Isn’t
this what Jesus does for me? All my
sins, all my crimes, I know not what I have done. Sometimes I see in part the magnitude of my
mistakes, put mostly I am ignorant of the many ways I offend others. I know not how severely I have wounded
others. I know not how deeply my sharp
words have penetrated tender hearts. I
know not how much blood stains my hands.
And
Jesus, who no longer hangs on a cross, but stands full of glory in heaven, says
to the Father, “my daughter, my beloved is forgiven.”
This
forgiveness that covers me and cleanses my bloody hands is not obligatory. It
is freely given for greater love has no
one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. His forgiveness draws me closer to Him and to His love.
May
I encourage you, as I encourage myself, to set yourself and those who have hurt
you free as you ask the Lord to help you forgive and see them as Jesus does?
Lord,
may I no longer offer forgiveness as only an act of obedience, but as an act of
love and compassion as I acknowledge that none of us truly know the debt of our
sins that you paid for at the cross.
I needed this. Thank you. :)
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